9/24/52
March 13, 1999
Alchemy
I was born September 24, 1952 in Indiana at 12:38PM.
Four years ago after a week with all of my family in our cottage in
Northern Michigan, my father went to the basement and shot himself.
We were soulmates and although the loss was profound I have always felt
as if he were standing by my side seeing me through each phase of my
experiences from that point forward. . . .
I have traveled a great distance since that moment, both internally and
externally, and have consumed books, places, ideas, experiences as if
they were the next meal for a hungry sojourner. . . I have spewed my
thoughts in journal form to a friend during this process.
Very recently, this urge came to a complete standstill and I find myself
hardly able to speak. Oh, not the everyday requirements, polite
gestures, required interactions, but my thinking has slowed, almost
ceased.
In it's place a wide and empty space seems to have opened before me.
It's as if I am not drawn toward it but I also cannot retreat. I don't
feel frightened or lost, not curious or driven. . .that is the strange
part. And I am emotionally stable, of that I am certain.
Might you have some insight into this strange sensation I am feeling.
9/24/52
(asyou didn't specify city, this is a sort of generic Indiana chart)
Papa Hemingway is my Soul Mate. My deepest sympathy goes out to you. The tragic circumstances of Suicide touch an immensely powerful Archetype that has obviously been an important part of your journey.
From a Jungian perspective...you have come to the moment when it is no longer appropriate to share your feelings and experiences in such an expansive way without damage to yourself. It is what Jung called the Mandala phase of Individuation. Your Psyche is telling you quite clearly that it's time for you to continue all of this work of transformation...your Sacred Journey...protected by a sacred circle. You now need a Temenos...a sacred ground...in which to proceed. It is no longer appropriate to carry on your soul work without this step. In Alchemy, it refers to the Hermetically sealed Vas or Vessel which would allow neither the premature escape of the ingredients, nor the addition of any contaminants. Jung considered analysis to be such a sealed vessel. In Alchemy...the result was called Gold or the Philosophers' stone...the Lapis. Jung recognized that the serious alchemists were actually dimly aware that they projected their own Psyche into the contents of their retorts and vessels. Aware that the gold they sought was not something material...but spiritual. (The Aurum Nostri, Non Vulgum)
It is now very much time for you to begin the work of Individuation as though you were as serious careful about it as an alchemist. Working with someone in the realm of depth psychology or analysis is actually imperative.
Astrologically, you have certainly passed through a 5 or 6 year Pluto period, but that is now over. What has come in the wake of Pluto is Neptune. Neptune Trines your Sun and Sextiles your Moon. Your Libra Sun, by the way, (as mine) is the Alchemist Sun. It is the Sun of Paradox, as well as of the better known ideas of Art and Beauty. The Shadow side of Libra is Ambivalence and Indecision. But those problems of perspective and attitude are completely held and transformed by the evolved Libran who understands the true nature and value of Paradox. The experience of Jungian work is going to transform you and help you to reach your soul. Uranus is going to conjunct the Dragon's Head next year. That is the cutting edge of your consciousness...what you must continue to strive towards. If you've read what I have to say about Aquarius, you will understand. The journey ahead promises to be difficult...but the reward is pure gold. Your own true life and soul.
We Baby Boomers with Pluto in Leo are also undergoing an extraordinary transit. The current Dragon's Head is at 22 degrees of Leo. Our current, collective need is to strive towards Joy and Creativity and to heal our Egos from the dessicating inflations and cold deflations we all constantly suffer. This is an intense and transformative challenge to you (and me) now.... You can either accept or ignore what I see. But if you have any doubts...I'd certainly get in touch with the Intuitive spirit that is nearly overwhelming you at the moment. Pay attention to your dreams and your enthusiasms. They are infallible.
kristo